Tuesday, September 29, 2009


So. Here I sit in Chemistry class. I know I'm supposed to be researching things for my project, but my mind is everywhere else right now. I can't concentrate. Maybe it's because of a certain boy in a certain class......or maybe it's because my mind has been going off of 4 hours of sleep every night for the past month. I'm not sure, really. But I do know that it doesn't help that I have been stressed out lately. I am starting to think clearer now that I am well rested (my mom let me rest this morning and come to school for the last 3 classes).
One thing that has changed, since I've gotten sleep last night, is that this boy I like isn't everything. My mind has been consumed with him lately, and It really shouldn't be. I can't remember why I was ever overly-giddy about this. I think I'm starting to remember that there are more important things in life than boys, pointless crushs, and being "popular". I shouldn't care about the opinions of those at that stupid school. I have more important things going on in my life, and I should focus on what I came here to do: graduate and get into a good college. I should quit worrying about little things and focus on what God has planned for me. He is in control, and I have to remind myself of that all the time.

Anyways, I need to go do homework now. I'm singing at youth group for the second time tonight! :D


Saturday, September 12, 2009


So, tonight I went to this get together/hoedown/fun thing at someone we know's ranch. It was so fun. I instantly started talking to this girl named Rachael that I haven't talked to in so long. We talked about everything from boys to school to our relationships with God to who knows what. It was amazing. We discussed our purity rings, and everything else. It was truly an amazing night.
Well, I should probably head off to bed so that I can actually feel alive and awake for church tomorrow. Besides, I'm not that nice when I'm tired, so yeah. Goodnight blog world. :)

Love, Sami

Friday, September 11, 2009

Breakin' At The Cracks

I always feel like I'm in the shadows, you know? Like everytime I try to prove who I am, someone has to one-up me, which of course makes my self-esteem plumit. For example, with school. I can't simply just want to be an actress. It's like if I really want to do this, then I have to be practically obsessed with all things theatre. But the thing is, I am not that girl. I write music. That's who I am. I am a lyrical heart. And whether they realize it or not, I feel like I get stuck in their shadows most of the time. Like when I audtion for things, I always feel second best. But what really annoys me is that I know I can do it. But it seems that now one is really giving me a chance to show them all I can be. So here I am. Stuck as the girl that isn't popular, is easily broken, but has a lot of heart. I just want to be given that chance.