All you have to do is.....try. :)

I have too much to say for this blog. It couldn't, in any way, possibly contain the excitement I'm feeling right now. I'm feeling strong, confident, successful, accomplished, and very very very very very blessed. You see, a few weeks ago, I started to get a cold. And being a singer and all, that pretty much sucks. So, since I had been preparing for the Variety Show auditions (which were in like a week from when I got sick) for over a month beforehand, I was completely bummed out about this whole situation. I had decided that if my voice went out, that maybe it was God's way of letting me know that I need to re-direct the focus to him. So, I put on a smile, and faked that it was alright.

But heres the good part:
A day before the auditions, my voice started returning to normal, but I was still coughing and stuff, making it impossible to practice without me messing up the song. So, I went to school the next day feeling.....conflicted. I knew I wanted to audition more than anything else (due to the fact that I chickened out last year, and quickly walked out crying because of my fear of never being good enough). And God knows that too. But I wasn't sure if that is what God wanted me to do. I was still unsure of if I would be able to sing the somewhat high notes, but I knew that if I just tried, than it would be more than I did last year. So, I faced my fear dead on, and after about 3 hours of intensly practicing before the auditions, I did it. I went there, and did it. And you know what? It felt amazing. And the best part was that people that I never thought would ever say I had an good voice, or would ever compliment me on something like this, well, I'm pretty sure that I blew them away because they all complimented me on my performance afterwards. :)

Not only was I able to prove myself to everyone else, but I proved something to myself. I CAN do it. And I learned from all this that all you have to do, is TRY. :)
I hope this blog entry inspired someone to get out there and face their fears head on.

NEVER EVER EVER GIVE UP. And I mean that. You never know what you can do unless you try.

And I honestly believe that God allowed my voice to heal just in time for this because He loves me. And He knows the desires of our hearts. He cares about what you care about. And this just proves that He is continually faithful.

In case any of you are wondering, the song I sang was "Believe In Me" by Demi Lovato. She is honestly an inspiration to me. And I'd like to pass that inspiration on to whoever reads this, along with everyone else.

Love,
Sami. :)

Ps- The sun is shining, it's warm outside, and God is amazing in so many ways. This might be the best spring so far. :)

The Way You Move Ain't Fair, You Know

So, I've been thinking. Maybe my "reinvention" is more of a redemption. Or at least more of me getting back to the heart of worship. Which is all I want.

Anyways, I wanted to share a song with you that I like a LOT!!! :D



That's all for now.
Love,
<3 Sami :)

Reinvention

So, for the few that actually read this blog (if any), I've changed the look of it. You see, I've recently been renewed in Christ, so along with that, I wanted to change the template on this as a way of saying that the past is behind me now. I know, I know, this really isn't that big of a deal. But, It's kind of how I do things. Something in my life changes, and I end up changing the backgrounds on here, and on both of my twitters. It's like a reinvention. I'm making sure that those backgrounds sort of represent who I am. It's my own personal way of being unique. And I know I'm already a unique person in my own ways, but this is just another way to stand out. Well, sort of. It's like the song that I've recently been addicted to by Britt Nicole ("The Lost Get Found"):

"Don't let the lights go down
Don't let the fire burn out
Cause somewhere, somebody needs a reason to believe
Why dont you rise up now?
Don't be afraid to stand out
That's how the lost get found
The lost get found"

Ok. So I know that that song has been out for a while now, but I recently re-discovered it, and it's filled with so much truth. I pretty much love it.

So, that is what this blog entry is all about. Reinvention. And it's not just the name of the new Superchick album that comes out in May. ;)
It's my personal way of saying I'm not going to give into the world anymore. Of course everyone slips and falls every once and a while, but I'm not going to be believing lies anymore. It's time to get back to God. No more time to waste.

Well, if you read this, thanks. If you didn't, then you should, and you should feel guilty about it. JUST KIDDING!!!!!! :D It's cool if you didn't read it. Either way, I have to go now. Until next time. :)

Love,
<3 Sami

PS- AWESOME new song by Meredith Andrews "Never Move On":
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OpSsYHv_16c

Super Short Blog :)

So, usually, I have super long blogs, but today I just decided to do this: http://www.twitlonger.com/show/3insa


or if that link doesn't work:

http://tl.gd/3insa

Well, that's pretty much it. That is my blog for today. Enjoy. :D

Love,
Sami <3

Reasoning

You know, for a while there, I almost wanted to delete this blog. I thought maybe it was getting too personal. And I didn't want to worry if others could see it. But I finally figured out that you say what you want to say. I know this will sound beyond cheesy, but I learned something while watching Spiderman today. There is always a choice. Whether the situation seems impossible or not, there is always a choice. Lately, I've chosen to make things complicated. I've been trying way too hard to make friends with a guy I like in hopes that he would see what I want him to see about me, and maybe possibly fall for me one day. But the truth is, If we're not meant to be, we're just not meant to be. I can't force a situation. Although I'd like for everything to go the way I want it to go, it probably won't. I'm not in control of those kinds of things. God is. And I talk a lot about how God is in control of the situation, and how I'm giving it all to him, but if I truly am giving it to him, than maybe I should stop trying to be something I'm not. I suppose you could say that this is an "easier said than done" situation. But it's actually quite simple when you think about it. I have a choice. I can either keep striving to make my life have a fairytale ending, or I can allow God to take my burdens and sit back and relax. I'm choosing to relax. I don't need to have control, although I thought I did. It's tiring to try and make someone fall in love with you. It just doesn't work. And I kept thinking that I had to "let him go" or "give up". But by letting God truly have the reigns of my life, I'm not really "letting him go", because I never had him. And as far as me "giving up", it's really not so much giving up as it is not worrying about this anymore. The truth is, even if I have an interest in a guy, that doesn't mean that I know why we met. Yes, I do believe that everything happens for a reason, but sometimes, I don't really want to know what that reason is. I mean, if God wants me to know, he will show me later in time. But as for right now, right here in this moment, I'm going to enjoy my life. God will do beautiful and wonderful things in my life, and with me. And it's not a bad thing to pray about what He wants me to do in my life, but I'm not going to worry. Worrying is a time consuming, foolish thing to do. I've got better things to do that sit around and think about the "what ifs". So, that is all for now. Thanks for reading this if you took the time to. If not, that's ok. It was really me reasoning things out loud, or in a blog. :)

Merry Christmas/Happy New Year,
<3 Sami

Tell me what do you do, when it all falls apart?

So, the last month or so (the time since I have last been on here) has been a whirlwind of crazy emotions. I became way too stressed for my own good at one point, but then God somehow changed everything, and gave me peace in the middle of a disaster. I love Him so much. I am glad that He is in my life.
Which brings me to yet another point. I am unwillingly in love with someone who sees me differently than I see them. I think you know what I am referring to, but just to clear things up, it is a certain someone in a certain class. Ok, maybe I'm not totally in love. I'm not quite sure what real, passionate love is really like. But I am trusting that God will provide a husband for me someday. The only problem is that there is someone I feel something for already. I keep reminding my self that it is just a crush. But there are times that I feel so much more than I've ever felt before, that I can't help but think to myself that this has got to be something more that what it is at the current moment.
I need to know if what I feel is mutual with this other person. And even if it isn't, I'd like to know that what I say and do, and who I am is intriguing to this person. Not in a, well, I'm not sure how to put this but I'll try, attractive (as in "sexy") way, but in a way of wanting to get to know more about each other and actually become friends. Because that is what I'm feeling. Currently, I'm not feeling any "cutsy", "overly romantic" feelings. But I feel as though I could talk to this person for hours, and I have this incredible want to get to know this person. I want to really know him. Not just be a cutsy, giggly, high-school, "romantic" crush, but an actual relationship, whether it be just friends for right now, or more than that.
There is one hangup, however. He's got a girl, and his girl and I are friends. Last time I saw her, I wanted to be excited, but I felt a little crushed because I saw them talking before. I'm not stupid. I know when people are feeling something more for each other. And although I spend the rest of the day convincing myself that they were just really good friends, I knew. I knew. And What is worse is that I knew I knew. I just didn't want to admit it to myself. The hardest part was learning that I was right all along. And I really didn't want it to be that way, but it is what it is. I was doing ok for a while there. I managed to get over that fact that they were back together, but then yesterday, I cried about it for maybe 5 seconds, and then I moved on. I refuse to let myself break over this.
But I do believe that God has allowed us to meet for a reason. Maybe he is teaching me to be patient and wait for my true love. I mean, I KNOW that I am willing to wait for heaven and earth to come for this boy (which is weird because I've NEVER been this patient about a crush in my whole entire life), but if it doesn't work out, it doesn't work out. No point in loosing sleep over things like this. Not anymore.
Anyways, Now that I've poured my heart and soul out to you, I have nothing left to say. Besides, this blog is getting a bit long anyways.

Love,with all my heart,
<3 Sami


"Firefly"- Jimmy Needham

nervous butterflies or the flu?

So, lately I've been feeling this wierd feeling in my stomach. And at times, it hurts really bad. It feels like it's cramping, yet at the same time I like it. I don't think its the flu. I mean, it only happens when i think of one thing, or, um, person. It has got to be butterflies. And what sucks is that I can't get rid of them. It happens whenever I think of him. I get that feeling, and then I feel giddy, and I end up not wanting to eat very much. I think I may just be love sick. Head over heels, uncontrolably love sick. And whats weird is that I like it.... :D
He honestly inspires me to write not only songs, but also poems. And when one thing happens with him and I (like when he talks to me for maybe 2 minutes tops), I just can't stop writing. The words flow out of me so fast, and I love it. He is the first guy who has ever inspired me to write this much. I'm thinking God allowed us to meet for a reason, and this might just work out to be ok. But, I need to pray about it. I'm not going to work myself up for something that will just let me down in the end.
"I get this feeling that if I fell in love with you, you wouldn't know what to do...."
Well, that's all for now.
<3 Sami


"You give me love, love, love, love, crazy love"- Crazy Love by Michael Buble
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=td7y8evEV7c